Self Image

For me the most difficult question is, "Who are you?". I know what the question actually means. I have already hit the panic button! But I try to take the easy way out and  start off with a pseudo-confidence a verbal recitation of my CV. But when forced to address the 'real' question usually I go along the lines of "Umm..I am...Yeah..Actually..I am more of..kinda like"...accompanied by nervous scratching and fidgeting.

This has often made me ponder who am I. Self help shit have suggested that I stand in front of a mirror and say something like you are blah blah blah... But whenever I face a mirror all that I see is an ugly useless woman! How can I answer who am I!

I know who I am...a failure. I have never won a prize (except for some merit certificates and other geeky stuff in school), never dared to approach the stage, neither dared to participate in anything. I have never been one of the popular girls ever.

'Love yourself' is another crap that I have heard time and again. But probably it is not easy to love a fat, ugly walrus-lookalike! Whenever I look at a mirror an ugly, failure stares back at me. So loving yourself is not that easy after all!

*ends with a sarcastic smile


For those who want to see the fat and ugly author, here is me, no make up, fresh out of the pool

And here is a snap of me with the wonderful man who understands me like no one ever can!