This semester has been a very bad time for me. It has brought too many changes for me to accept and that triggered a big negative reaction in me. The unexplained pains are returning. My right hand feels almost paralysed with excruciating pain and I can barely write. My head is bursting and soon the pain will move down my spinal cord. It has already started. The last time this happened was during my ISC exams. I had to be injected with painkillers to be able to write my exams. I hope it does not get that bad this time. My last doctor just prescribed me a couple of anti depressants.
BTW my medications have increased more than double. I am also taking Propranolol 40mg for the PTSD. I was pretty stable for sometime. I just hope this is nothing but the exam pressure. I wish to get over with it as soon as possible
I can literally feel the pain move down my neck. I need to lie down. I have not been taking clonazepam so that I could study till late night and this is showing effect now. I musts sleep tonight. I must sleep well. I am scared. I feel lucky that at least my husband understands or at least tries his best to understand my problem. I am scared that one day he will get impatient too. This fear is very crippling
BTW my medications have increased more than double. I am also taking Propranolol 40mg for the PTSD. I was pretty stable for sometime. I just hope this is nothing but the exam pressure. I wish to get over with it as soon as possible
I can literally feel the pain move down my neck. I need to lie down. I have not been taking clonazepam so that I could study till late night and this is showing effect now. I musts sleep tonight. I must sleep well. I am scared. I feel lucky that at least my husband understands or at least tries his best to understand my problem. I am scared that one day he will get impatient too. This fear is very crippling
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