Imagine being on a slow roller coaster ride. You have paid for six rounds. They are over. But no one has stopped or slowed it down. You feel excited. The seventh round is like the extra ride you have sneaked in for free. On the eighth round you feel like the guy controlling it has forgotten his counting. The tenth round had already made you feel light and heady. It's pleasant but somehow you are not enjoying it much. By the twelfth round you desperately want it to stop. By the fifteenth all that you want is to get off the damn thing and go home. By twentieth you have somewhat given up and still there is a flickering wish that someone will rescue you from this slow torture! This is my life.
Every single day I wake up, not knowing if I'll be in the highs or in the lows or how rapid my mood changes will be. Life is like riding a mood roller coaster, which is sometimes slow, sometimes rapid and sometimes remains static for days and then takes starts off with a jerk. You are born, bound to the roller coaster. You might be standing at the same position for days but you cannot get off. You are not in control of your moods; your mind controls you, instead.
You do not know whether you will be happy or sad or angry or mad by the end of the day but you know you'll have to live through today to face a tomorrow. Sometimes my moods change almost 8-10 times day, or more. At times it is exhausting to go through so many mood swings. At times it almost my body. I feel a dull, persistent pain which refuses to go away. Medicines don't seem to work. All I want to do is to bury my head in a bunch of pillows and cry my heart out and it maybe just morning!
Every single day I wake up, not knowing if I'll be in the highs or in the lows or how rapid my mood changes will be. Life is like riding a mood roller coaster, which is sometimes slow, sometimes rapid and sometimes remains static for days and then takes starts off with a jerk. You are born, bound to the roller coaster. You might be standing at the same position for days but you cannot get off. You are not in control of your moods; your mind controls you, instead.
You do not know whether you will be happy or sad or angry or mad by the end of the day but you know you'll have to live through today to face a tomorrow. Sometimes my moods change almost 8-10 times day, or more. At times it is exhausting to go through so many mood swings. At times it almost my body. I feel a dull, persistent pain which refuses to go away. Medicines don't seem to work. All I want to do is to bury my head in a bunch of pillows and cry my heart out and it maybe just morning!
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