By the end of 2007 I was happy surrounded by my imaginary friends as gradually started losing touch with real people. At times my imaginary world even helped me take my major decisions in life.
Life became a complicated series of exercises and it was difficult to keep up with the world around me. I withdrew more and more into myself and the realm of my head. I had lost almost all of my friends. My grades plummeted down to the bottom of the class. There were more and more complaints against me every day. I was either too pushy or too withdrawn, too fierce or too careless, always lost in my own world. I had hardly any interest in anything that was in my syllabus. Once I was among the toppers of my school and now I was struggling to pass. The expectation that my family had on me was enormous and it was too much to take.
Mo
The more disappointed I was in my results the more I would surrender myself to my comfort of my imagination. My faceless friends accepted me and acceptance was of primary importance to the girl who had no expectations for her sweet sixteen.
Isolation from my peers made my imaginary world more and more vivid and important to me. I was content in their company. They never judged me. I got all the appreciation and admiration I needed from them. At that time I would gladly give up a boyfriend to be with my imaginary friends. They helped me cope up with my loneliness. They chose my clothes for me. They dictated my hairstyle and my actions and loved me, no matter hwat. Gradually I was becoming dependent on them.
Life became a complicated series of exercises and it was difficult to keep up with the world around me. I withdrew more and more into myself and the realm of my head. I had lost almost all of my friends. My grades plummeted down to the bottom of the class. There were more and more complaints against me every day. I was either too pushy or too withdrawn, too fierce or too careless, always lost in my own world. I had hardly any interest in anything that was in my syllabus. Once I was among the toppers of my school and now I was struggling to pass. The expectation that my family had on me was enormous and it was too much to take.
Mo
The more disappointed I was in my results the more I would surrender myself to my comfort of my imagination. My faceless friends accepted me and acceptance was of primary importance to the girl who had no expectations for her sweet sixteen.
Isolation from my peers made my imaginary world more and more vivid and important to me. I was content in their company. They never judged me. I got all the appreciation and admiration I needed from them. At that time I would gladly give up a boyfriend to be with my imaginary friends. They helped me cope up with my loneliness. They chose my clothes for me. They dictated my hairstyle and my actions and loved me, no matter hwat. Gradually I was becoming dependent on them.
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